0 The best gift you have gotten in life

I always complain about this or that about my life but now I'm kinda thankful about all this things. Things that had went wrong, I feel thankful for it because I have learnt a lesson about it. 

I still complain but not as much as before though. I hated when things go wrong and I'll feel discourage.

I'm an escaper. I escape from reality a lot of times. I pretend things are fine and blank out my mind to stop thinking about bad things. I realize that it might be a bad thing because if there is a problem and you try to not think about it, it can never be solved.

I've learn how to be positive in many things now. I still get my mind off things but sooner or later I'll have to face reality. One thing I learn on how to deal with a problem is to be positive. Think positive, think on the good side. Like..." oh, this can be a life lesson for me to do better next time"...or ... "life always has its ups and downs, this little thing will pass"

It always help me to calm down and try to deal with the problem. I love how it helps me every time. Life is a gift. The best gift you have ever gotten. Sure that it has some bad times, but always think about the good times. If you didn't have a life, those good times wouldn't ever have existed. 

This new year can be a new start but also can be a year of realization for many. You have lived for so many years now, look back and think about the things that make you never want to forget. Think about also the many craps that you have been through. You lived through all those moments. Bad things will come but it will also pass.

Keep moving forward and live your life. We have received many gifts but life itself is the best gift that you have ever gotten, so enjoy every second of it.

Happy New Year everyone!

0 Thank You 2012! Helloo 2013!

A look-back at 2012!


2012 was messy. I've messed up many times. I made many mistakes. Guess I was still too childish. I mean there's nothing wrong to be a little childish at times but when you are not a teen anymore, you have many responsibilities for you to take care of and for that, you can't act like a child.


I guess mistakes are what helps you to be better person in the future. Sometimes you don't know what's wrong with something until you have committed that mistake.



In 2012 I've known myself better. I've learnt to love myself more. I've gain more confident on things I do. There was this time where my self-esteem went a little too high and it made me started thinking that I'm the smartest person out of all the people that I know.....but that I was too lazy to use all my brain power hahahaha but of course, I realized that it was not true lol

This pictures here is after I decided to cut my hair short. The last time I remembered I had short hair was when I was like 11 or 12 years old. 2012 was crazy! Also, I was pretty into Jay Park at that time and decided to copy that tattoo he has around his neck.

2012 took me back to my childhood and helped me move on and not to be stuck in the past. It was the year where I learnt to be happier and forgive. The year where I decided to make everyone I love smile more.


I'm not perfect nor am I trying to be perfect. I'm just trying to be the best that I can be. There are still many problems yet to be fixed and no way I can fixed every single one at once, but little by little and through dedication, nothing is impossible.

Welcome 2013!!

I welcome 2013 with a warm hug and lots of smile. 2013 will be the year. I've decided to dedicate more on my blog. I've been blogging since 2009 but I wasn't consistent with the posts but many readers still stayed with me. I'm very thankful for all of you guys.


I'm going to be the responsable person that I'm supposed to be. Do the things that I supposed to do and stay away from the evil muahahaha


I've always believed in the saying "tomorrow will be a better day"! Yes! Everyday can be a new start and every year will be better and more happy things will come. I have a feeling that 2013 is going to be the year of great changes.  Many great things to write about so wait for me this new year. I love you guys very much!

What's better to end a post than a little camwhoring hahaha

Fail on trying to look sexy 

In my pijama pants lol

  I had to post this one because I look so freaking evil but still manage to look good hahahaha

Oh! Also recently, I've discovered that some faces that I make, makes me look like G-Dragon HAHAHAHAHAHA  I need to capture some pictures in the future for you guys to see.  Have a great new year!

0 First chocolate covered strawberries

The title says it all. I'll just post pictures lol

I also tried making some chocolate bowls. I put vanilla ice cream on it. So delish!

Christmas is here already. Make sure you have your gifts ready for your love ones. Have a great holiday!

0 Christmas baking! My love / hate relationship with holiday foods!

I love holidays! Especially the ones where you can eat a lot of food and nobody judges you. And those are the ones I also hate the most. Nobody will judge you, so you eat like a maniac and regret it later on after knowing that you have gain a few pounds.


I went grocery shopping for Christmas. After coming home from buying stuffs to make cakes and other sweets, I realized there's only 4 eggs left and I didn't buy any extra.


I could only make a few cupcakes and a "Christmas" cake. I put quotations on Christmas because it was supposed to be for Christmas but I saw that it was too ugly so i cut it and ate a piece after dinner tonight haha

Trust me, it looks better on pictures. It was messy looking. I was out of pink gel to write Christmas so I used a blue one. I was going to add strawberries but then I realized I didn't buy strawberries either. :(
My brain is so useless lah *sigh*

I couldn't pour all the batter into the baking pan because it was too small so I made some cupcakes with the remaining batter.

   

Mom doesn't like frosting because it's too sweet but without frosting it looks too plain so I add little on some of them like that happy face one or the one I failed to make a heart. haha do you guys see the one with green medusa hair? hahaha

Oh btw I use yellow cake mix... lol I always use cake mix cause it's too much work making it from scratch. Lazy me...


I will end the post with deliciously-looking photos of tonight's baking...night? ??? Talk to you guys next time ;)

 MEDUSA!!!

0 Gum cutting and train pushers!

I went to my ortho today to get my attachments. It was painful... T.T  He had to file some of my teeth to make space for my teeth to move. And for some, he used a large filing disk. Is like the smaller version of a miter saw. F*! He cut through my gums and I was bleeding so much! 

I was cursing in my mind and it kinda helped. lol  I have never had a tooth extracted. EVER! And my teeth are pretty healthy (just one crooked tooth)... well, that's what my dentist said. So going to the dentist for a regular checkup wasn't painful or anything. He just look at it, clean it up a little, and I'm good to go. 

Now that I'm getting my teeth straighten and have to go through all this was very new and scary to me...well, not scary scary but something not expected. I really hope my wisdom teeth doesn't come out *crosses fingers*  I'm not scare of needle...like shots and blood extracting are fine, but getting needled on my mouth?! EF NO!

And I also hate crowded trains. I'm okay with it in around manhattan, but not in brooklyn. In brooklyn when the train is packed with asian aunties, instead of getting on and off one by one, they push everyone in or out! WTF?! The train conductor can see you lady! You will get you turn to get on or off. No need to push. But thank God I don't usually get off on the same stations as them. Of course not all of them are like that, but many. 

Seeing this make me realize how polite my mom is comparing to other asian mothers. I've seen many aunties out there talking super loud, spitting, and pushing, but not my mom. She seem very educated and nice. Yeah her education level might not be high but my grandparent raised her well. She is the best mother one can ask for.

I realized that I started talking about my teeth and ended up talking about how awesome my mom is.

Anyway today was kinda cold and windy so I wore a pink scarf. I put on a black coat with a furry hat, skinny jeans, and gray boots. OOTD!

                  

I seriously don't remember where I got any of them. The scarf I think was from G-Market. I bought the jeans at a mall but don't remember the name of the store. Boots was bought online but don't remember where lol yeah I'm very bad with this.  I'm not really a brand kind of girl when it comes to clothing. I only look at the design and material it is made from...and the price of course. If I like, I buy no matter if the brand was not a popular one.

  

Did a little camwhoring too. XD

Hope you enjoy this post and sorry for not posting one last night. Have a great night everyone and happy holidays!

0 I almost ate my own meat!

**THE WRITING MIGHT BE JUST A LITTLE BIT GRAPHIC (NOT REALLY), NOTHING A NORMAL HUMAN CAN'T HANDLE, BUT IF YOU ARE WEAKER THAN A NORMAL HUMAN, THEN DON'T READ... :)



I haven't been feeling so well since last night. No headache, no nausea,just wasn't feeling well... I have been eating a lot of fried and unhealthy foods and I'm paying a price for it. :(


Last night I woke up around 4am maybe and my mouth started to hurt. Not crazily but still in pain. I went to the bathroom and notice some pieces of loose skin from the side of my mouth. My mouth is so swollen, I accidentally bit some skin off while sleeping. WTF?!


My tongue have very bad teeth mark on it. If I have woken up a little later than I did, my mouth would be all bloody and I would have became a cannibal of my own meat.  eeeeww My tongue would have been bitten off too.


On the outside, my face look normal, maybe a little bit of the morning swelling but nothing out of the normal, but when you see inside, it's so freaking swollen. I can still talk and everything but it hurts.


Even now I can't close my mouth completely or the sides and tongue would get bitten again. Is not an allergy reaction. It is just some slight inflammation and I'm taking something already so hopefully it'll work.


I've been in a bad mood all day and I hate myself for that. I can't control or stop my b*tchiness. I haven't told anyone so you that are reading this, are the first ones. *gasp*



It just started to rain again. It have been raining for a few days on and off. I love the rain. I want to sing and dance on the rain, but afraid the neighbors would see and gossip around telling everyone that I'm mental or something. I'm NOT!.........maybe sometimes I may act a little childish or funnily weird, but that's just who I am. Sure everyone does that once in a while....you do? OMG so happy! lol


Oh well, I'll leave you guys with this. I might write another post tonight. Have a great day!

0 Xiaxue's photoshop lessons

So I've been wanting to learn how to photoshop for a very long time. Every time I learn some steps, I'll forget it the next minute. Because it is so complicated and so many steps to follow.


 I've always wonder how xiaxue photoshops her photos so I looked it up. Some old videos of xiaxue's guide to life shows her teaching a few simple tricks. It was easy to follow so I tried it. I tried to find some photos online since I don't have a good light in my room. I decided to try it with a photo of xiaxue and another one of qiuqiu.


Keep in mind that I'm just a beginner so don't expect it to be awesome. Although criticisms are welcome because that's how I'll improve.

Bong Qiu Qiu before photoshop

After

I smoothed skin out and conceal the blemishes. I lighten up the picture a little. It is kinda blurry though. I also added fake lashes, make the eyes blue and some eyeliner.

 Xiaxue before photoshop

After

 I make her skin smoother and make her eyes bluer. She always use liquify so I did that too. Made her face slimmer and a smaller nose. I tried to darken her hair but it only did a little. It is not as blurry as qiuqiu's. Kinda happy with this one :)